Tag: ramadhan

ramadhan!!! hello, eh??

its another days passed that make us closer to ramadhan.

it is said that before the holy month come, shall we prepare ourselves for ibadah and good deeds. me too, trying bit by bit to re-do my daily activities so it hold such deeds. well, as much as i could remember to do

i could remember a bit when the count was still 90 days. 3 months, before Ramadhan. i hadn’t been at my best. i constantly losing my time on phone, twitter, instagram, ao3. anything that could made my mind happy and don’t need to thinks about jobs, my problems, my worries.

half a month ago, or perhaps at 50 days count, i (tbh i don’t really know) started to gain momentum. the first one was my will to be “cool” acceptable, to be better, to prove myself. i start making my yearly target again. i made i journal. THE yearly journal i hadn’t done last 2 years!! and what makes it best was my friend, mae

i knew from her twin that the two of them had regular quran memorizing session. as in, more often than me. but her twins hadn’t done her thesis yet hence why i was hesitating to ask for help. then, passing by i asked jokingly to her if she want to help me a bit to memorize quran again. and she answered yes! that was the turn point of my life so far. i started reading again, as a routine at shubuh and maghrib. i started putting murotal on my phone, my laptop again. and most importantly, i had gained a fire in myself, a role of such, that i could, that i want to be, a hafizoh again

she reminded me that memorizing 15 juz of quran is possible. that even in our age, past 20 years, it is still possible to ziyadah aka adding our memory of quran

the rest, i still couldn’t do much. in term of salat sunnah and shaum, i still have some evil in myself that told me to slack off. oh, i wish i could beat them soon!!

memory of ramadhan

no. 3 ; memory of ramadhan

of course it’d be itikaf! every ramadhan our family always go to attin to itikaf. it’s around 10 last days of ramadhan.

we would start preparing from noon. like, making hot tea. packing rice. or mom would cook some food for sahur. meanwhile my siblings and i would prepare the mattres, sajadah, pillow you shouldn’t bring it tho or.. putting other things in bag.

but on more relaxing days, aka early days of 10 last day of ramadan. attin wouldn’d be so full and we could go after isya. after tarawih in masjid kompleks.

most of times it’s bapa who prepare all of things. and that’s also why we tend to go after tarawih.

but last year, as covid stroke i didn’t remember we go to itikaf even once. and i haven’t spent my ramadhan in malang, we already go home bcz of covid.

and talk about ramadhan, i do treasure my ramadhan in pesantren. where i used to spent my nights at masjid (mushola akhwat) and.. honestly it’s more of my naps than reading quran. but still, the peaceful of silent masjid is what i miss nowadays.

Well, this is so wrong. Itikaf purpose is for ibadah, not making videos. But that’s what we do lol

that’s what i miss from ramadhan

Look for hafiez vidio here https://www.instagram.com/p/ByEwSYwh9Ka/?igshid=1kjfs1l1ulpqx