Month: August 2021

I am not (ready) for first day of school tomorrow!

at this point I am still questioning if university life is also called ‘school’. but what else should I call it?

anyway. so, tomorrow I’m back to school. until… December. I am a 5th semester now and apparently my father thought I am still lacking for a 3rd year students. (which, I could agree but I also would like to say I know how to use autocad, what is dialux, had 2-3 times using pvsyst which, I don’t think most students at my major has done that). so it kinda be my goal that I have to make 2 or 3 projects this semester. not like I didn’t plan any last year. it just doesn’t work. one reason and another

something else that bugging my mind is, wether I should left my organizations (plural, yes) or not. I felt it started to tying me up from my dreams. but I was scared, if, once I told people around me about that they would, just brush it off and still ask me to became a secretary next year. well, to be honest the thought of leaving also scares me. it terrifying, the thought of having no positions. and to left the environment that hold my religius mentality. I left my self to decide this one month and hopefully I’d have an answer in the end (or better, in mid of) september.

third point! if you look at my schedule here,

well, you would not understand anything. but let me explain. two of the lecturer are my old teach for engineering math. I can say my grades aren’t that good from being with those lecturer. the one is better tho. two of the lecturer are… I could say better. which, one of them never ever attend any face meeting with us. and one of them is.. really kind. both in teaching and the giving grades too.

right. I think that enough for my ramble today. hope you too, whenever you’d start your school. have a luck with it. cheers!

productivity challenge 15/100

it’s 23:50 pm here and I have a nagging feeling deep down that I am not doing enough today. So I grab my laptop, opened this wordpress. and started to write.

today’s done:

-daftar vaksin bandung

-progress 50% konsep oprec 01class

-updating my linkedin

–making art for emi

-trying dialux aplication and following some tutorial

Productivity challenge (14/100)

guyss welcome back to my challenge.

okay anyway, I would put my progress here so I get some motivation doing things for tomorrow

  1. tidying up my room

it wasn’t my room, it’s a bedroom on my granny house. I took this video as my guide (I also tidy up the dining room the day before! so that feels like a productive thing to do)

2. buying groceries

and get my feet reaaaally sore that noon. I bought some snacks for granny, seasoning for cooking, looking through some cupboard and shelf.

3. fasting

4. I finished the post design for HME

Kampus Merdeka programme: I failed and why that could happen

setelah 3 company merespon aplikasi ku, aku mengikuti tahap kedua lanjutan dari seleksi administrasi. company pertama adalah indosat kantor jakarta, dimana aku mendaftar jadi project management kalau tidak salah. sepertinya karena kriteria nya tidak terbatas jurusan aku jadi pede mendaftar itu. yang kedua adalah telkom. aku mendaftar menjadi admin tetapi hanya berlanjut sampai tahap uplod feeds instagram. yang terakhir adalah danone, aku mencoba supply chain karena dibuka untuk jurusan teknik, tapi hanya berlanjut sampai tes psikotes, or sumthing like that

status masih dalam seleksi, alias ga lolos

why did I failed?

this is some things I could think of

  1. I applied to late. even if it technically still opened but most of the company has since begun their recruitment so maybe there’s no slot left. and I think I’m just not good enough competing with thousands applicants for those.

2. late. my biggest wrong decision is postponing my telkom. I got the emails that morning, but I keep procastinating until noon. the bad news, I have meetings (a lot) that noon and couldn’t fully do my task on time. which is, making a post about why you applied for this and a little google form quiz about what could I do for a companies problems. I submitted it at 8:10 while the due date are 8:00pm

3. the psichology test. this is my result of that danone test.

I was shocked to see I am a manipulative. god.

first, I always, always concerned everytime I take a quiz that my result never gave some strong points. I mean, those score never come stronger at one side. it’s always balancing the left and the right. how come I get those? and did that mean my personality is bad? after all I’m kinda relieved I take this test since I finally now some more things about myself. and of all test I take, this is one that most ‘professionally’, I guess.

it consist of personality test, problem solving test, and a… kind of logic test. with those shapes quiz, and those simple math quiz.

so that’s 3 major reason why I failed. and I think the biggest issue is the time I submitted this. if I ever come for next semester, I’d do it more sooner.

at least I knew what I have to do next year.

Productivity challenge: 11/100

some things I have done today:

  1. reading 3 articles in medium.com (8 Questions You Can Ask Yourself to Write Better Articles, 6 Underrated Habits of Truly Confident People, 5 Common Habits That Make You Less Likeable)
  2. having fun at learning germany; one video of easy germans and doing a read-out-loud of an essay paragraph from this site
  3. interview for IEEE, I’m not satisfied with the result and I’m scared if I’d put on Public relation. Or worse, rejected
  4. making one writing of promptgustus
  5. tilawah (reading alquran) to-do; send a voice note of murojaah al-maidah hal. 2
  6. checking my linked in (for daily roast-ur-self!)
medium article I read
a paragraph in germany, about description of ‘my family’ that I tried to read. second attempt with some help of the essay’s recording

Prompgustus: Why did you start your blog?

I just saw a prompt theme from ikatan kata and that is: why did you start writing in your blog? this pique my interest as I may or maynot never describing or thoughtfully explain why I start my bloog in the first place

so, It started at my first year at Brawijaya. which I had a lot of free times, aside from late-night shitty senior meeting that drain my (and us) energy. as for me, I love writing. had been since I was a kid. my ma said that I once handsigning a roll of tissue (of all things). a full role of tissue! it was around my toddler year I think. and when I’m done, I sighed loudly and saying ‘phew. I’m tired’ to ma.

in my elementary, I had a bunch of diaries. and constantly writing on it. I too, made some short stories, which never continued for now. I think my fantasy thought as a kid are better than I am now. come my high school time, I always had some worn-out book notes. a notes that papers are made from recycle papers. and it just feel special to write anything there, unlike those white paper notes. I wrote at times I got bored at lectures and in the third years of my hs I had 3 or 4 books of that notes.

so, when Uni came and I finally got my gadget (middle school and high school at a dorm school) I search some in google, and apparently I found out that wordpress are easy to made. and here I am~ with this 3 years old blog. I’m not as creative as I was. with this stay at home thing where I could not think clearly. going out are always made me creative and now I’m not. tho I mayhaps start being serious at my academic writing.

That’s how I start my blog. how’s yours?

Kampus Merdeka programme. how is it going for me

I’ve done it!

a technical test from kampus merdeka.

I was really scared of this test. my expecatation are some more serious technical test about administration etc etc. but, it turns out just like some psychological test or some sort. this is the mail from kampus merdeka, of my application in telkom indonesia as… project administrator. it is not related to my degree-engineering. but still, I’m willing to give it a try.

the mail

I received the mail 2 days ago. even though it says the deadline of the test is in 2nd august, I can’t let my guard down and decide to do it in 1st august. I kinda postponing it, proscatinate it under the alibi ‘the house are too loud, I’m afraid I won’t be focused on the test and won’t ace it’

good things I have some peace this night

anyway, about the intenrship programme. I originally just applying around 3 or 4 positions. but in 31st july, a mail came and it said my application was denied. so that noon I dash on my laptop, opening the kampus merdeka web, and searching through the internship and land my application on 3 more positions in different companies.

to be honest, I hestitate to apply this because if I were to get the internship, that could be mean that I’d have my hand really full-the requirement of daily works is around 6 to 8 days- and I already have LDF(rohis), aslab, and also the academics, which in my record never been that good and I should be worry.

well, there’s no harm in trying. if I get this, then I’ll just go through it. no matter how busy I am. if I didn’t then, well. there’s still plenty to give a try.

Productivity challenge 7/100

yay~

even though this isn’t… a continue of previous post, but. I think I’m being more satisfied with myself each day

my productivity today:

-register 2 more of kampus merdeka internship programs

-I read a journal about EBT

-I finished my departement monthly control books

-I made bubur sumsum!

-and lastly, doing my daily exercise

this is the exercise I usually do. a ballet exercise, or maybe more suitable for dancer.

Still, there’s many things I haven’t done yet. some points in my to do list that I haven’t crossed. but no probs. one step at a time, right?